How do you keep on living when you no longer feel that  there’s no a meaning in being to live with a man who makes you realize each day that there is no life with him anymore?

Am I prisoner in my own world? I tried to make myself feel that everything will just be fine when I will simply live one day at a time and make the most of what each day brings just to be able to go on living. I tried to teach myself to bring back the love that once has made me stuck with him but then every thing shatters into pieces when he makes even just a little mistake. I keep on examining myself if I am causing this pain and angst because I am falling out or he simply unnerves me.

Everyday I try to go along with the flow believing that it is the only way that could help me survive this all, this crisis I feel I am undergoing. I tried not to be affected with all the things that he does, in every move that he makes that irks me every time.

I want to tell myself that everything would turn out just fine if I keep on believing that someday somehow things would be alright when all I think right now is to be out of here.

It’s been almost eight years now, and for that eight years , I never really felt that i have been living in a world that I could truly say that I am really getting better or just being me. It been almost eight years since i started to lose my self-esteem, my self-confidence and self-worth.

It’s been almost eight grueling years when I just let myself go along with the tide uncertain of where it could take me and unmindful of it because I no longer give a damn on it.

I could never really forget that one fateful day in March 2001 when he looked at me from head to toe as if inspecting my whole being if I was worthy of anything and now I regretted that day when I allowed myself to be blinded with this so -called love when I really felt that it does not exist at all.

And the worst part of it, I simply don’t have an iota of idea of how to escape from this whirlpool, when there are so many things and people to consider. Should I rather go on with this life that I don’t think a future awaits for me or should I rather leave and hurt?

If I could only turn back the clock…. if I really could… and God how I wish I could…..

I really always thought that love could bring you to a happy ending and really wished that it would bring me there, but this time I no longer knew what happy ending is and what really happiness is. All I know is I just have to live each day, expect that the worst will surely happen and never really wait for anything good to happen for when it does it is always short-lived. It does exist for several days for it is the only way, his way to make me feel that everything is okay because it is the way he wanted it to be. And I, the foolish one, just think and believe that he is right and I took all the blame and mistakes.

I used to  believe that love grows every day and not even thought that falling out of it would happen, but then it seemed that every day of my life for the past eight years, I am slowly fading out, falling out and dying inside.

I don’t want to play with this reality but it simply does exist, because for every single thing that he does it does not bring joy to me but it just irked me and I am so afraid that I am totally trapped in this.

I am seeing myself face to face with an enemy, living with a complete stranger and when I just give him a look I sometimes asked myself who this person was? It is as if I am imprisoned by someone I am forced to live with.

I am slowly falling out but I don’t want to be selfish. I have people to protect, I could not afford to let go if it means that I would just put them in pain.

Summer’s supposed to be fun, when you are out in the sun and enjoying the sand, but here I am feeling restless and useless.

What am I supposed to do? I am too tired of watching movies, too lazy to look after the kids and my eyes are too strained with the computer’s screen. Someone has to help me…..

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In September last year, we finally said goodbye to our internet connection at home due to some really really bad connections. And I promised myself never as in never again will I get the internet connection of that company. I just have the chance to be connected when I am in school, but I longed to once again have the internet connection at home so I could really get in touch with families and friends. Internet is the only way I could really connect with them and I really find this cheaper than any other means of communication there is.

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Usually at this time of the year, summer should have begun. I am used to the very warm weather here in my country, but lately, the weather has become unpredictable. Just this week we have experienced heavy down pour of rain on Sunday and Monday and then by Tuesday we have experienced a searing heat of the sun. And then yesterday the rain was threatening to fall down and even this early morning. But then at noon time today, I just don’t have the guts to get out of this cold office. The heat is piercing my skin.

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I am not the person who goes for making new year’s resolutions. I never really did. Although several times in the past during elementary and secondary school days wherein we were asked to make formal themes or composition writing on New Year’s Resolution, but honestly, what I did was just for compliance’ sake. I never really took them seriously. I just wrote it so that I have something to pass to my teachers.

But this year, I have some five things that I want to accomplish: And they are…

1. Learn how to drive.

2. Buy my own laptop.

3. Enroll in a ballet class during summer.

4. Write a novel with my creative writing students.

5. Not to get pregnant.

At this time I am slowly falling in love with my young writers. One of my favorite writers is Sheila Mae Paquibol. Shy and most of the time quiet, you could barely hear her voice in my class composed of eleven and twelve-year old writers. Sheila is quite different from her classmates. She’d rather stay in a corner observing how her classmates play pranks against each other. I could only hear hear loud voice in her writing and as always I am truly amazed of this  young creative writer.

Here is a sample of her piece during our descriptive essay lesson.

An Illusive Dream

One day as I was walking in a very long road, I passed by a new world, a very beautiful world and quite different form the world I am used to. There were different kinds of trees that bowed down as if they were whispering sweet good things with each other. There were different flowers with different colors dancing in the air with the butterflies and bees swaying with them as if lovers who have longed for each others caress.

I continued to walk as excitement filled my young heart and at the end I saw a sparkling stream with glittering stone on both its dies. I felt an unexplainable peace coming from deep within me as I sit under this gigantic tree which shelters me from the shining sun above the clear blue skies. The river sings a magical lullaby as it slowly flows and I just can’t help myself being flown away to a never ending land.

The peacefulness I felt blended with the song of the birds rendering a chorus in the tree. I felt a cold fresh and clean wind. I never wanted to leave this place. I wixh to stay here forever…but I know it won’t be long before I will wake up  to reality.

Here is another essay by my creative writing student. This is an example of a compare and contrast essay.

Why do I like or dislike things?

We  always talk about things we like or dislike. But do you know the reasons why we like or hate these things?

Take me for an example I have several reasons why I like certain things and completely abhor others.

In terms of food I am a great fan of chocolates. Most kids of my age enjoy eating both chocolates and junk foods because they are delicious. Many people eat these foods in family picnics, while watching TV or movies and even while studying. But if I am to choose between chocolates and junk foods, I go for chocolates because chocolates make  me feel better when I am not in the mood. Junk food is obviously unhealthy. That’s why I like chocolates more than junk foods.

Stuffed toys and Barbie dolls are enjoyable toys to have. Most little girls play with them because they have characteristics that girls love. They can make a scene or a toy house for their toys together with their friends. These toys help little girls build friendship. For me I choose stuffed toys over Barbie dolls because stuffed toys are soft whereas Barbie dolls are not. Try to hug a stuffed toy and definitely your sadness will be erased. This is something you can’t do with Barbie dolls.

Soft drinks and fruit juices are what we usually drink when we feel hot and thirsty. They are also served on occasions and parties. We take in liquids after eating. And soft drinks and fruit juices are refreshing liquids apart from water. But I love fruit juices better than I do with soft drinks. I love its natural taste compared with cost drinks. I also like the health benefits I get from drinking fruit juices. I feel more thirty after I drink soft drinks while I feel more refreshed and completely satisfied after drinking fruit juices. I am also afraid that I will get sick after drinking soft drinks because my friend had UTI after too much intake of softdrinks. With fruit juices I am secured and I know that I will stay healthy.

Here are just some of the things that I like and dislike. How about you? Can you tell me things you like and dislike?